Observations from a Rock

Tuesday, January 31, 2006

Give it another go

Today I have another job interview! Hopes are high for this job. Of course it's not what I would want to be doing with my life at this point but need a job. It pays decent enough for me to be able to pay my bills and get out of this hell hole I have fallen into. Not to mention that I have a few good prospects out there that I am still waiting to hear back from.

The lady that called me about the interview kind of made it sound like they had already interviewed some people and it didn't go as well as they had planned. So, I am someone, it seems, was interesting but not enough to interview right away. The lady used words like, "more than qualified" and "we need to fill this position as soon as possible". I will see if I can put in that old Cackmandu charm and get a job.

I will fill you in when I get back this afternoon!

UPDATE: I interviewed for the job and was very pleased with how it went. I would like to say that I by this time 2 weeks from now I will have a job but I can't say that for sure. I left there feeling good about how I presented myself, my ideas and the skills that I have for the job. So, fingers are crossed and hope to hear back from them soon. They said within a week. Yeah right! They do want to get this job filled ASAP and get going with the work that needs to be done. As always I will keep you updated. If anybody is there?

Sunday, January 29, 2006

I couldn't make this up

Just about an hour ago my doorbell rang. I went to go answer it now know why they put peepholes in doors. I was kind of bummed to see my ultra religious neighbor, Shem, as I call him.

My wife had run into him this morning on her way to work and exchanged hellos and that was pretty much it.

I have no idea what made him want to come over to my house. I soon found out. I reluctantly invited him into my house. We sat down and discussed my job prospects in the area and what I have planned in the near future. Well, it wasn't long before religious vomit was spewing from his mouth. Telling me how the Lord works in mysterious ways.

He was hinting around at conducting a prayer with me and my son. I kind of shuffeled to other shop talk and he came back to it. He started asking my son if he knew about prayer and if he knew who God was. Of course my son said no.

I have nothing against religion or religious people. Just don't assult me with the crap when it is asked for. I don't mind when people skirt around religion to see where you stand but when they do that and continue it just pisses me off. So, he starts praying and wishing me all of this good fortune to fall in my lap. When out of nowhere I son let out a seam splitting fart. I couldn't help but laugh. He just kept going. I should have said something but what do you do? the guy was honestily trying to come and check up on me and see if he could help.

This is coming from a guy that freaked out on me when I had a ganesh car freshener in my car. Asking, "You don't really believe in that kind of stuff do you?" I am more inclined to take on ganesh as my God then the other one so revered.

Sorry people but I just don't believe that this huge complex planet was created in a week. I am a darwin type of guy and am happy with that decision. I just wish people would accept me for that as I accept them for being catholic or christian. Should work both ways instead of me being looked upon as a heathen.

Frozen blueberries make a mess

Today I gave the boy a bowl of frozen blueberries as I wrote my new story for my writers group. he came back to me in about 15 minutes and showed me this.

Who would have thought that would happen? Even after scrubbing his hands I couldn't get it off. Good thing it's bath night.

Friday, January 27, 2006

Happy Anniversary!

Today marks my 1 year anniversary blogging. Kind of crazy! Not really all that crazy I suppose. Just hard to think that I have maintained this thing for a year. It has been fun, boring and altogther something new.

I am going to be going in a different direction...I know I say that all the time. This time I mean it. You should be seeing the change soon. I have a few ideas brewing and that should make some difference.

Just some stats for you to think about what has gone on in here for the past year.

1,729 people have loaded my blog (I would add another 200-300 due to me not having a stat counter from the begining.)

221 posts this past year counting this one.

144 people on average saw my blog monthly.

18.4 posts a month I submitted.

4.8 people a day came and saw Kow's Corner on months with 30 days.

4.6 people a day came and saw Kow's Corner on months with 31 days.

.6 blogs a day were written over the last year.

Just some fun facts coming to you from Kow's Corner. Thanks for all that have made this a fun year and wanting me to come back for more. Not sure that is a good thing. I think I will be adding some new facts and figures as soon as I get a chance to fully look at my years worth of work. Will be updating this post tomorrow wit better stuff.

Tuesday, January 24, 2006

No time for chit chat

I was just informed of a Job Fair that starts in 45 minutes. What the hell I am doing blogging about this? Who knows? I need to shower and get dressed. I also have to run off a handfull of resumes to submit to anybody.

I also made a good buy today. Thanks to a complete stranger. I needed a meat thermometer for the turkey that I am going to make this evening. It was $10! Fuck that! There was a woman that was eyeing them as well. They were buy 1 get 1 free. So I paid her $5 and we went on our way. We helped each other out and all was good. There is still some hope in humanity afterall. Bye! I need to shower and shave...( I went on an interview the other day and forgot to shave)

Monday, January 23, 2006

Counting sheep

I am up way too late. I was in bed shortly before 10 but couldn't get to sleep. I tried to read but that didn't do anything. I was going to watch the Ringu (Japanese version of "The Ring"...also the orginal). Was tired of reading a movie. Came to use the computer and played some games. Was debating if I should play some PS2. The last time I did that I was up till the sun came up. Not a good thing.

I have nothing to really write about. I think my son snuck into my bed and I will have to sneak him back into his bed. Will be touch since his room is one big fort with blankets from wall to wall and I have to duck or crawl anywhere in his room. He may just stay put. Maybe, I will go finish reading my movie.

Oh yeah, I have to roast a turkey tomorrow (today). I am not looking forward to that. I need to read 'The Joy of Cooking' and brush up on my turkey roasting skills. We were going to make it today (yesterday) but it was still frozen a bit. So, my wife works tomorrow and I am all by myself to cook a 9.96 lb turkey. Who know's could be a great photo blog...sure something zany will happen as I am NO Naked Chef but who is?

How about this?

My dog Ceasar is feeling much better. He is running and being his same old spazzy Jack Russel self. For a while there he would pee when I tried to pet him. He never has liked me. But now he will at least let me pet him and snuggle if the need ever arises.

I am also reading a Garrison Keilor book. I have seen him in person and have enjoyed him but reading this book makes me want to sleep or read more. Not as funy as I had imagined the book to be. Wrestling with myself debating if I should finish it or not. I am only 50 pages into it (of 367).

Ahh yes, that gives me an idea. I will have to figure it out but will be trying out some new things as far as posting goes. Not that that will make a difference since I seem to have 2 readers and may have possibly pissed one off to never read my blog again. Story of my life....the one that got away.

What I convey!

I am wondering if I am sounding a bit like a whiny bitch here? I by no means am trying to make that what this blog is about. My life sucks and I have nothing more than that to write about at the present time.

I sent off another 4 resumes today...2 of those had to be by mail. You would think that by this day in age we would be able to email things more often. So I had to spend $9.10 to ship one of the resumes 20 miles up the road. Blah!

I from this point on I will be the spineless bastard that I have been portraying on the really bad days. Thinking I need to write about some funner things than being a piss ant all the time. No, dog poo stories to relate at this time either.

Well peace out and catch you on the flip side.

Sunday, January 22, 2006

Why am I here?

I have just sent out 5 resumes and played a few Yahoo games and am feeling better about my situation. Although, I am far from being in the clear. I have some good job prospects. Fuck, that's been my story for the last 7+ months of unemployment.

I have been thinking about what a fellow blogger (kayten) had said in a comment a few weeks back:

C'MON! I read you for more than dog poo and vomit. I mean, sometimes you
make me realize that my life isn't as bad as I feel it is. And sometimes you
give me things to wish for. And sometimes you just remind me of my friend Lance.

I am not sure how to take this statement. I can't say that I am proud of the turn of events of late in my gloriously shithole life. Nonetheless, it's my life. I'm not sure that I'm all that happy that my life sucks so bad that someone else who is having a run of bad luck reads my posts and says, "Boy I'm glad I'm not that poor sap!" What the fuck could I possibly make anybody wish for? I know that I wouldn't wish my situation upon my worst enemy.

Just had to get that out there!

I just had a phone call from a friend and he told me that his wife is pregnant and will be having a baby in late August. Sounds good to me. Just another reason to get back to the wonderful mid-west.

Other than that, there is nothing going on here. I am going to be checking up on a few jobs next week and see where I stand. I am not having such a good feeling about one of these jobs as the guy that I have been trying to talk with has been a prick...via his secretary. I called to follow up on my status last week and his secretary relayed the message, "He will be in touch with you." What the fuck does that mean? To me it sounds like he's pissed at the thought that someone would even think of calling him to follow up on a job interview. Piss on you, I didn't want to work for you anyway.

That is obviously not true. I recieved a phone call from a lady that my wife works with and she had asked me if I would be interested in a job doing whatever. I told her that if I had to lift the scrotum of an 80 year old man and wipe his butt every night at 6:30 I would do it. Meaning I would do just about anything at this point. That should be a nice thought to end with....

Friday, January 20, 2006

watch out hemingway

Fuck! I promised a funny story for next months writers group but I have been in a very shitty, "I hate my life", state for the past few weeks. If anybody can be funny at this time it really isn;t me. I can say that I am going to be funny and when it comes down to it...dog shit gets the the laughs.

I am going to start my short story tomorrow and that will give me plenty of time to revise and make things kick ass. I think I have a premise in my head but now I have to change the format. As in, I was going to tell it in a typical story form but will go to first person now. I am sure that my sense of humor will fall on deaf ears. Like I said, there is one gentleman who probably thinks I am a schmuck. It's all good. My creative juices are flowing and will post after my writers meeting. I know that nobody is looking for to more crap from me but fuck it, I am going to throw it out there for you to consume, do as you will.

Enjoy life and stay tuned to my world.

stay of execution

I am not sure how long I will be staying here in this area. It does seem that it will be for a few more weeks though. That is a good thing. I think I may have found a job that will allow me to collect a paycheck and still look for other jobs. The pay isn't the greatest but I just need to find a way to make some money and will figure all of this other shit out!

The other day I was making plans to get the hell out of dodge and now I am sitting here still. Like I said, it may be only for a few more weeks. That is a good thing! I do know that I need to get the fuck out of my apartment. Way to expensive for my taste these days.

I will write more about the job as soon as I know a way to explain what I am feeling and want to say. It is one of those situations that may wind up putting me in hell or purgatory. I know that hasn't stopped me before but now I have some readers that read this and I actually face for 2+ hours a month. More than likely I will state what the job is and my feelings about it soon enough.

Tuesday, January 17, 2006

Albino deer

Yesterday my wife had gone out with the girls and when she came home it was family time. We have been exploring some trails down at the local college and are loving it. The first time there we went down a side trail and went into an area that was more than likely off limits to us. We came upon some pigs. Yes pigs! We stopped and watched them eat a bit more and then wandered around the off limits area some more. We walked back and took some old corn that was withering away on the stalk. Wer carried them over to the pigs and fed them. My son was loving it. They were in this huge field surrounded by an electric fence. I wanted to test it out and put my hand on it and was disappointed at the shock that i recieved. It was no worse than a super duty charge from rubbing your socks on the carpet in winter. I tried to have my wife touch it but she didn't believe me in the fact that it wasn;t bad at all. As the pigs finished the corn we were getting ready to leave my wife bent over and touched the fence. She was surprised at how little of a shock she recieved. We are fucking goofy!

Then yesterday, we had wanted to try out this other loop. We parked our car and walked the 1/2 mile to the begining of the trail. As we walked down the road to the trail head I looked in the woods and had seen something white. I had asked my wife if it was an animal and we both looked at it and sure enough up pops this:
This is of course not the actual thing I saw but close enough. It was snow white and just lying in the leaves under a tree. I kind of looked at us and then took off in the woods. I have seen only 1 other albino deer in my life and that was in the back of a truck of a hunter. My wife calls me 'eagle eye' as I seem to always spot things in the woods. I am often the first to spot animals that are hard to see. I credit this "gift" to my day spent wandering the woods as a youngster and coming upon many animals.

For example, in the summer of 2004 I had gone on a camping trip in Shenandoah with some buddies. One of the guys was a novice to any kind of camping whatsoever. He didn;t like the fact that we would be spending the night out in the "backcountry". Anyway we had been hiking for almost 7 hours and we were all hot and tired and naturally pissed off. The third member of this group threw his pack on the ground and siad that we were, "taking a break now!". I had taken my pack off and grabbed some trail mix and sat on a rock next to the stream. The novice was talking smack about not seeing bears. At that very second I looked up and saw a black bear walking in the woods about 50 yards from us. I popped up and pointed at the bear. The novice was scared and me and the other guy were enjoying the view. I made a noise and the bear looked at us. The novice shoved me wondering what I was doing.

That was just an example of "Eagle Eye Cackmandu". Thought I would share the crazy story of an albino deer.

Monday, January 16, 2006

Call me Don Cackmandu

Since I have no life I watched the Godfather Trilogy this weekend. It started out as me just putting a movie in and watching it as I folded clothes. I was sucked into the make believe world of the mafia by Francis Ford Coppola and Mario Puzo.
I haven't watched these movies in a very long time. I think it has been just a lack fo time. Each movie is about 3 hours long. My wife is Italian and has never seen the movies. She doesn't want to see the stereotype of Italians.

I must say that now I have watched them all again and have them fresh in my mind, Godfather part II is the best. If you haven't seen these movies you need to. A big part of cinema history. I am now going to be watching the bonus DVD about how it was made....basically the behind the scenes of the trilogy. I was up way late last night and hardly put a dent into it so I will hit that up over the next few days.

Other than that there is nothing really new going in my life. It's Martin Luther King (MLK) day and everything is closed. I almost wonder how America can be strong with all the days we give ourselves off. Nothing against MLK! He stood for great things and did great things to progress the civil rights movement. I am saying that I think it's crazy that my apartment office is closed today because it's MLK day. Just seems that we are finding more ways to take time off of work and wondering if it needs to be that way.

I understand the federal gov't get's all of these "holidays" off and even banks. I am fine with that. But when other people and types of business' start to do this I think it's insane. I just don't get it. To each their own!

Sunday, January 15, 2006

Ceasar

My dog, Ceasar, is hurt...bad. I am not sure what the heck happened to him. He yelped last night when my son jumped on our bed where he was sleeping. I went to go pet him and see if he was ok and he yelped and ran away. Then later on I had noticed he was favoring his front left paw. He layed motionless all night last between me and my wife.

Today he could barely walk on it. He is now lying in our bed tucked in under the blankets. I hope that he gets better soon. He is a great dog that is usually running around and enjoying life. Now you ask him if he wants to go outside or eat, he just looks at you with literal puppy dog eyes that say, I do but it hurts to do these thinks master.

Well, I was just going to take a pic so you can see the poor dog. I had gone to pet him and check up on him. He was surrounded by our other dog and cat. Then my hand went into a wet spot. The poor guy is scared and hurt so he wizzed when I was petting him. Now I can add, wash bed linen, to the list of things to do today. So fun to be Mr. Mom.

My quest

Jesus! I was thinking instead of whining and complaining about nobody coming to my blog I shall go find them and have them come here. Well, I looked for over an hour and found 3 interesting enough blogs to comment on and HOPE they come my way.

I ran into a buttload of teeny blogs, foreign blogs, and just really boring blogs. Blogger needs to get a better way to search blogs here. Give me a wider variety then clicking on the key words in profiles and then getting thrown to 20 or so blogs with the same word in their profile. GAY!

I still haven't thought of a gimmick yet but do think I will bore you with my list of DVD's in the next day or two. I know, bet you can't wait to get on that.

Saturday, January 14, 2006

lists

I am a list compiler. I like stats and averages and all that shit. I am now working on entering all of our books into this online library thing. You will be seeing that up soon, I hope. I have lists of all of my DVD's and no they aren't on display in alphabetical order. Not that anal! I like crunching numbers but suck at math. What is that all about?

I guess thats why I love Amazon so much. I have a wish list a mile long on there and for obvious reasons that is not a great thing. It will be remaining a wish list for a while.

All in all I have no damn point to this email, I of course had something way better in mind when I started this thing. Who gets fucked, you the reader. I apologize now.

I think I need a gimmick for my blog. Make people want to read about my pathetic life. Or just a feature, that guy that invented HNT (Half Nekkid Thursday) is A #1 on blogger.com. Good for him. I will think of something and soon you shall reap the rewards of my thoughts. Sorry to have wasted your time.

whoa

What the hell? The other night I was a blogging fool. I opf course have no offerings of the meaning of my blogging, I have no cute tales of my son and luckliy no new dog shit stories to share.

It is just a slow day and I am pondering my future and my life. There has to be so many people that would like to know about the situation I am in now. I am sure that there are a lot of people out there that imagined that I would end up being a shitbird.

By no means am I an idiot, although it seems that I do very idiotic things. I must say that after my mother died when I was 14 I made a choice to live my life the way I wanted to. Sometimes its a good thing and sometimes it bites me in the ass. I never know when I will die. I seem to know this lesson all to well since no one in my family has passed their 40th b-day. (Family I mean mom, brother) That is now my biggest goal in life and will still have to wait that out for another 12 fucking years.

I of course have other loftier goals as well, you know get back on my feet and not be that guy that so many people had expected me to be. That would mean get a job and eventually move back to MN. Lots of people ask me why I want to move back there. Well to be honest, it's what I know. I spent the first 19 years of my life there and have only been there a total of maybe 3 months in the last 9 years. I'm not good at math but that adds up to not being there very much.

I have already seen and done things that many people could imagine experiencing. For that I am grateful but I still have a longing to be with "my people". This East Coast shit is crap. It has snowed once this year. Give me a break.

Enough whining. I am outta here for a few minutes and going to post again about something so insanely boring that nobody I am sure will read it.

Thursday, January 12, 2006

kids...ABC'S

My son never ceaces top amaze me. He's really my best friend in the whole world. He comes up with some of the funniest things.

The other night I thought I had a mini Bruce Banner on my hands. My son had a splinter in his big toe for a few days and we were hoping it would work it's way out but it didn't. That meant we had to take it out and he wasn't having any of it. It took the two of us to get him strapped down and to start the procedure. He has just pissed. There was no pain involed but he didn't get that. My wife had tried a few times all unsuccesful. I grabbed the tweezers and grabbed his toe and did what had to be done. He was thrashing around and hitting me in the back and head. He has a pretty mean right hook. He kept yelling, " I HAVE THE POWER!". I eventually got it out and all was good. I asked him what the "power" was. He said it was the milk and cereal he eats. We tell him that he has to eat it so he will be big and strong.



I never would have thought a kid could have been such a monster and look like this.

On a better note my son is now a card carrying member of 'The I Know My ABC's' club. He is 4 and just now got them down. Is this late? He is alway preoccupied with bugs and how things work than to actually know his ABC's. We are so very proud of this kid. He still gets a little leary around W but that should be licked in a few weeks. I would have to say the best part of him knowing them is that when he is done he says, "Thank you, thank you, I will be here till Thursday." How funny is that?

here was my first submission to writers group

Only John Lennon Would Know
David had walked up to his friends house to catch a ride from his mom. They hung out and talked about the upcoming hockey season. His friends mom was put together enough to finally take them to the high school. They had finally moved up to the big school and were fresh pickings as freshman. They had been there about a month and found that it wasn’t as bad as originally thought. The radio plays a song. One of those songs that stay in your head all day.
“Hey Chico”, a friend of David called out.
“What’s up?, David replies.
“You finish your biology?”
“Nah, I have study hall this morning and I will finish it then.”
David was an average kid finding his way in high school. He was lucky enough to have a nickname and lots of friends. His mother didn’t like when David’s friends would call and ask for “Chico”. He was a typical 14 year old freshman. He never made the honor roll but would always make the “honorable mention” list. He would laugh at this. School work came very easy to him and he knew he could make the real list if he wanted to.
David went through the school day learning new things about life, history and whatever it is they teach in public schools these days. David hummed the words to the song he had heard on the radio while doing biology in study hall.
“1-2-3-4-5”, shouted the captain of the freshman football team. David and the rest of the team were doing their warm up calisthenics before practice. David went through the motions of jumping jacks. He hated jumping up and down flapping his arms in full football gear. His mind wandered to a warmer place, It was early October and it was already chilly in this part of the country. He would count the cadence and wish that it would end and they could actually start practice. They did, after all, have a big game tomorrow. Besides by running around and knocking the other boys around he might get feeling back in his fingers and toes he thought.
“1-2-3-4-5”, shouted the captain again. They were now doing push ups and David really detested these. As his face was pushing up and down in the brown mud of the practice field. He heard the sounds of sirens. His only thought was what emergency they were rushing to and why did he not bring gloves to shield his hands from the cold mud.
Finally the warm-ups were over and it was time to “knock some heads” as David called it. He was the starting running back and was looking forward to the game tomorrow. If they won they would be in the playoffs. He hoped his mom would be able to make it.
David was feeling warm and feeling good. He had broke off a dash of 15 yards his first run of the day.
From the practice field next to where David and the rest of the Freshman were practicing came a shout for, “Chico”.
“Chico’s sister is looking for him!” yelled a younger football player.
“I don’t have a sister! Tell her to buzz off!” David said.
The “sister” walked up and talked with David’s coaches. David watched and noticed it was his older brothers girlfriend. The coaches yelled for him. As soon as he met them his brothers girlfriend said that he had to get home now.
David could only imagine the worse. He ran to the car and sat there silent for the 5 minute journey to his house. He walked inside to see his mother sitting upright on the couch. Her head tilted. Her lips blue.
“Go say good-bye to your mother”, David’s grandma instructed. He had never seen a dead body before. It wasn’t that bad. He knew this day would happen but not today, not like this. He walked over to his mother and leaned over and kissed her. He said his good-byes and cried like a 14 year old would. His life as he knew it was done.
He went into his bedroom to change from his football gear. His eyes blurry from tears. His heart and head filled with anger. He kicked a box on his messy bedroom floor and knocked a bedside lamp over. He didn’t think that conversation he had with his mom last night would be the last exchange between them. He never really took his mother serious when she sat him and his brother down to tell them she was going to die within the year.
He sat on his bed with his head in his hands and cried. What a, I going to do now?”, he thought. All that flashed in his head was that damn song, ‘Nobody Told Me’, by John Lennon.
Everybody's runnin' and no one makes a moveEveryone's a winner and nothing left to loseThere's a little yellow idol to the north of KatmanduEverybody's flying and no one leaves the groundEverybody's crying and no one makes a soundThere's a place for us in the movies you just gotta lay around
Nobody told me there'd be days like theseNobody told me there'd be days like theseNobody told me there'd be days like theseStrange days indeed -- most peculiar, mama

just for kayten

Well, the other day was a typical day in the life of me. Played Mr. Mom and had just put the boy to bed and came out to a disgusting taste. Yes taste, I basically have no sense of smell anymore since I worked around aviation fuel in the Navy. So I taste smells now. My wife came around the corner wondering what I was bitching about. We soon found the source. It was a HUGE pile of dog shit!

I instantly asked where our digital cam was. My wife asked, "Why?". I told that, "I had to take a pic and blog about it". She just laughed and said it was in the car and we needed to clean up this mess. I have included a pile of crap in this post but it does no justice to what I had to clean up.

Like I said, I was tasting this treat one of my dogs had left me. My wife being the sick-o she is makes me clean it up for her own humor. I turned the light on to see it better and was disgusted at the site of of the pile. It was liquidy and shining in the light. My wife went to go get me a plastic bag to pic it up. Yeah right! I lined my hand with some paper towels and went to pick it up. Well, that was just dumb. I felt the ooziness in my hands still and I quick brought the bag into my bathroom and let it drip into the toilet. I was dry heaving like a cat with a hairball at this point. My eyes had watered over all I could do was heave. My wife was in the hallway bent over crossing her legs so she didn't piss herself. Then it came up. My dinner was in the toilet mingling with the poo that caused them to unite. My job was done. I had made my wife laugh and I actaully puked this time. I could still taste the poop 5 feet away and I started to heave again. The rest of my dinner was swimming too. My wife eventually cleaned it up and all was restored.

I really wish I could smell. This tasting crap all the time is for the birds. I am really pissed I wasn't able to get a pic for you.

why i do this blog

I guess you could look at this as my mission statement. I can't really give you an answer so you read this.

I was asked at my writers meeting last week why I do this blog. For me, it was a way to relate some of the crazy shit I was seeing at work and in my life. I was pretty gung ho in the beginning and then it tapered off. I still come back and write about anything that I feel needs to be shared. I used to have a decent "fan" base and enjoyed checking other peoples blogs. It is just to hard for me to be caught up with other peoples blogs and do mine.

Anyway, before I opened my big fat mouth at my first writers meeting and gave the URL to my blog out everybody who read this was faceless and had no idea who I was. Now these people that I kind of know know what my personal life is. This gentleman looked at me as if I was a nice young man and was kind of spooked by the language and what I blogged about. Me and the group tried to tell him the whole thing about being anonymous.

I was actually hoping for funnier entries and if you have no life you can read my whole blog and I am sure that you can pick out a gem or two from the 200+ posts. I think kayten is a fan of dog poo and vomit blogs. So you pick and choose and see what you like. If it is something you like you will be back. At first, I had wanted to be Mr. Popular and that obvioulsy wasn't going to happen. It may when I have more time and not being morbidly depressed.

So thats why I blog. Take it with a grain of salt and enjoy. I have fun doing it and I guess thats what really matters. Just thanks for comng by.

getting it out of the way

I have few other posts that I would like to write so I am going to just get this out of the way now. I am one depressed sonuvabitch! I can't find work if my life depended on it. I am a huge failure to my wife and son and I am sure scores of others. I am probably being selfish but everybody asks how my wife is doing with all of this crap that I have dumped on us. What about me? I am the MAN and am looked upon as the one who is supposed be the bread winner. Oh well, just another chapter in my glorious life. What the fuck?

I had a jon interview last week and one today. I was hoping for more out of the interview today but was sadly disappointed in how it went. I went in there, I am guessing, overdressed and out of place. This job was for a groundskeeper job at a local college. It pays ok and I would enjoy it but I don't think the hillbillys interviewing me saw it as that.

The other job was for a position with Public Safety at the same college. It would be a great job. I am hoping to hear back from them soon. I am afraid that it will be much too late though. I will wind up moving up to Philly with my tail tucked between my legs.

Fuck! I need to just move on and do greater things for myself and my family. I have some college but obvioulsy need more to get anywhere in this so called life of mine.

Really what I think I need is to be relocated back to Minnesota. I miss that place so much. Everybody there wants me back, but would it be a wise thing to do? I think so. My wife is onboard and looks forward to the adventure. I now 100% sure that I will be with my wife for the rest of my life. If she can deal with my fat ass during this she needs to reap the good things that I KNOW I can offer.

Well, enough about my shithole life and the swirling toilet that it is. Maybe it will make for some good blogging to read. Everbody loves to watch someone suffer and rise up. At least I think I will survive. I have some better things to post about. Just thought I would keep it real and tell my peeps what was up.

Insane


Holy cow! I am a Yahoo user and am not that big of a fan of that Google stuff. Guess I am kind of 'old school'. Anyway, I like to check out what people the "buzz" section to see what the world is looking for online. I guess the #1 search of late has been for pics of a cyclops kitten. I took a gander and here is a pic of Cy the one eyes kitten. Some debate has been raised as to it's authenticity but seems that it is the real deal. It has passed on, only living a few hours. According to some reporter he says its the real mccoy and not a hoax.

I kind of enjoy seeing things like this and thought I should share. Kind of spooky but neat to see at any rate.

I am in the writing mood and will probably be writing some more entries as the night goes on. I already have 2 decent topics to discuss or enlighten any of you who stop by to read my pathetic blog.

I have gone over the 200 posts milestone and I am at just about a full year of blogging. I wish I had more but am happy with just over 200 for a year. It was good and then got crappy and then good again and is now crap again. I am hoping that this is a sign of it being good. I like the adding pictures thing to sell what I am blogging about. I also like the fact that I am just sitting down and writing about anything.

Oh well, I am off to relax a bit and then I will dive in feet first with a few blogs topics that I want to share. See ya when I see ya!

Monday, January 09, 2006

writer

Well, I finallt got my act together and submitted my first writing to my writers group. It wasn;t what I had wanted to submit because I was having troubles with what I was working on.

If I have to leave this area, I am going to be bummed out. I really enjoy this group and the people in it. Now I had to go fuck it all up and be a deadbeat.

I think if we can live with my bro-in-law for a year or so and I get a decent job, we will be able to save up enough of a nestegg to get back to MN. That way we will have the support system of friends and family. My whole family wants me back there. It has been just over 9 years since I have lived there.

I have been all over the world and nothing compares to Northern Minnesota to me. Unless, of course, I could move to Australia or Hong Kong...two of my favorites. I am hoping to be able to get back to MN in spring of 2007. So that gives me roughly 18 months to make this a reality. Not sure that we will be staying at my bro-in-laws that whole time....would be nice for the saving of money.

I had found a pretty sweet moving company that will move my stuff for $1500-1800. That includes gas and tolls. That was a quote that I recieved about 4 months back when gas was insane and in the $3 range. So, could be slightly cheaper if gas stays low. But 18 months is a long time.

Yes, I will probably be scratching the idea to move to wonderful Ely right away. Figured it won't be a great idea to move from one isolated situation to another. I have already failed as a man and husband. I need to get this shitty life back on track. I wouldn't wish this upon anybody.

Saturday, January 07, 2006

what a life

I hate this life that I lead of late! It has just gotten worse and I hate it! I think that I will be moving soon. Be heading to the Philly area. I have no choice as I am not able to get a job here and am lower than whale shit right now. It sucks because we should have moved to Minnesota back in May but we didn't have the balls to do it! Now we are royally fucked and will need to take hand outs from my in-laws. I hate that.

I think we will go stay with my brother-in-law for a while. It will be free and possibly a better area to find a decent job. We spent all of our savings on trying to stay alive and that has all dwindled away. I have had a few interviews here but obvioulsy nothing has panned out. Just sucks ass!

We would like to eventually move to Minnesota and make our dreams come true. Ideally we would love to live in the town of Ely, Minnesota. (I put up the link to the local radio station a few weeks back) By listening to the radio station I had found a 2 bedroom apartment for $400 a month, the first month rent being free. Then the next day I had found a job that paid $10/hr. But realistically we can't make the move now anyway.

So up no Philly I go for a while and get my affairs in order and make some money and build our nestegg up a bit and move back to Minnesota and work there for a while and save more money to head to Ely. This is my plan for the next 2 years. I am thinking if I can save a ton of money, I can be in Minnesota in the summer of 2007! I don't plan on staying at my bro-in-laws that whole time. I can only take so much of him.

Wish me luck and we'll see what happens! I had a decent interview yesterday but am hoping to hear back on 2 other jobs that pay crazy money for doing so little. I am hoping to hear from them soon. My lease here is up at the end of February. So I am thinking I will be out of here within the next few weeks.

 
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