getting it out of the way

I have few other posts that I would like to write so I am going to just get this out of the way now. I am one depressed sonuvabitch! I can't find work if my life depended on it. I am a huge failure to my wife and son and I am sure scores of others. I am probably being selfish but everybody asks how my wife is doing with all of this crap that I have dumped on us. What about me? I am the MAN and am looked upon as the one who is supposed be the bread winner. Oh well, just another chapter in my glorious life. What the fuck?

I had a jon interview last week and one today. I was hoping for more out of the interview today but was sadly disappointed in how it went. I went in there, I am guessing, overdressed and out of place. This job was for a groundskeeper job at a local college. It pays ok and I would enjoy it but I don't think the hillbillys interviewing me saw it as that.

The other job was for a position with Public Safety at the same college. It would be a great job. I am hoping to hear back from them soon. I am afraid that it will be much too late though. I will wind up moving up to Philly with my tail tucked between my legs.

Fuck! I need to just move on and do greater things for myself and my family. I have some college but obvioulsy need more to get anywhere in this so called life of mine.

Really what I think I need is to be relocated back to Minnesota. I miss that place so much. Everybody there wants me back, but would it be a wise thing to do? I think so. My wife is onboard and looks forward to the adventure. I now 100% sure that I will be with my wife for the rest of my life. If she can deal with my fat ass during this she needs to reap the good things that I KNOW I can offer.

Well, enough about my shithole life and the swirling toilet that it is. Maybe it will make for some good blogging to read. Everbody loves to watch someone suffer and rise up. At least I think I will survive. I have some better things to post about. Just thought I would keep it real and tell my peeps what was up.