Why am I here?
I have just sent out 5 resumes and played a few Yahoo games and am feeling better about my situation. Although, I am far from being in the clear. I have some good job prospects. Fuck, that's been my story for the last 7+ months of unemployment.
I have been thinking about what a fellow blogger (kayten) had said in a comment a few weeks back:
C'MON! I read you for more than dog poo and vomit. I mean, sometimes you
make me realize that my life isn't as bad as I feel it is. And sometimes you
give me things to wish for. And sometimes you just remind me of my friend Lance.
I am not sure how to take this statement. I can't say that I am proud of the turn of events of late in my gloriously shithole life. Nonetheless, it's my life. I'm not sure that I'm all that happy that my life sucks so bad that someone else who is having a run of bad luck reads my posts and says, "Boy I'm glad I'm not that poor sap!" What the fuck could I possibly make anybody wish for? I know that I wouldn't wish my situation upon my worst enemy.
Just had to get that out there!
I just had a phone call from a friend and he told me that his wife is pregnant and will be having a baby in late August. Sounds good to me. Just another reason to get back to the wonderful mid-west.
Other than that, there is nothing going on here. I am going to be checking up on a few jobs next week and see where I stand. I am not having such a good feeling about one of these jobs as the guy that I have been trying to talk with has been a prick...via his secretary. I called to follow up on my status last week and his secretary relayed the message, "He will be in touch with you." What the fuck does that mean? To me it sounds like he's pissed at the thought that someone would even think of calling him to follow up on a job interview. Piss on you, I didn't want to work for you anyway.
That is obviously not true. I recieved a phone call from a lady that my wife works with and she had asked me if I would be interested in a job doing whatever. I told her that if I had to lift the scrotum of an 80 year old man and wipe his butt every night at 6:30 I would do it. Meaning I would do just about anything at this point. That should be a nice thought to end with....
posted by cackmandu at 2:01 PM
3 Comments:
Hm ... well, you could ASK what I meant, but I'll feel sorry for you and clarify.
What I meant was the whole "grass is greener" thing. I could say, "gawd, I hate my job because of X" and then come over here and read you and say, "hell, I'm happy I have a job, and that it is so flexible with me," etc.
At the same time, I do envy that you have a wife who is a partner for you and who, no matter what you do or don't do, is there for you. You have someone to curl up in bed with even if you consider yourself a failure in your life. Even if you go out and cheat on her, you still have all the benefits of someone to celebrate your birthday with, someone to bring home medicine if you get sick. So yes, that inspires envy and perhaps even a little resentment.
While I'm buzzed and speaking my mind, let me add that I think that a secretary saying, "he will be in touch with you" means "it's not for me to say a damn thing because it's my boss' job to do so, not mine". And also that while being yourself at all times might ensure that you get a job that you're happy in, it may also mean that you get more rejections than otherwise. They may be rejections for jobs that you wouldn't want, but does that make the process any easier? How many people would be able to hear the un-PC comment, "if I had to lift the scrotum of an 80 year old man and wipe his butt every night at 6:30 I would do it" and think something GOOD about you instead of something not-so-good, like the guy in your writing group who already looks at you cross-eyed?
That's it for me ... nighty-night!
January 23, 2006 12:09 AM
Ouch... good luck Cackmandu! Try and be positive.
Dee
January 23, 2006 9:36 AM
Ahhh buzzed comments seem to be the best. So raw so honest. I am glad that me and my wife can offer a ray of sunlight and hope.
Just to be clear, I consider myself to be a failure at this point in my life.
As for the "un-PC" comment I had made to wifes friend....it was just that...she is a friend asking if I may be interested in a job.
Fuck it, I am like Popeye regardless. I yam what I yam!
January 23, 2006 11:17 AM
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