doofus!

i had driven about 600 miles this past weekend for the much overrated holiday weekend. I first went down to Wildwood, New Jersey for a few days and spent time with my mother-in-law and enjoyed myself. Then I headed up to Philly and spent some time with my wifes family. It was a great time as well. Good food and good company...what the holiday should be about.

Within those 600+ miles of driving I had thought of at least 3 complete stories that I had wanted to write for my writers group. I had every ounce of of them written in my head. Can I for the life of me think of any of it now? Not a chance in hell. I am going to start bringing a little notepad with me. I had 3 clever stories done in my head. I can only really remember 1 plot line really well, but as usual will come up short with it. I am going to sit and think of it tonight and write it down tomorrow. It really was good stuff.

Other than that there isn't anything really going on with me. Just here and alive and glad to be that. I will have to really get going with this blog stuff again soon.

what I am missing

I have NO television anymore. That means that I miss out on some of the best stuff ever....like SNL. I love that show. It has it's ups and downs but over all a very good show. I was up at my mother-in-laws house about a week or so ago and was able to see part of an episode ( I was too tired to stay up) and they had this great rap thing on there about, 'Narnia'. I found it to be hilarious and figured I would never see it again.

I was browsing one of my favorite websites and sure enough it was there. You really need to check it out and enjoy. It is too funny!

http://www.break.com/index/snlnarnia.html

Northern Exposure

I have fallen in love with this online radio station...again. I used to listen to it but had kind of been busy fo late and not a able to listen. It is so much like the radio station in, 'Northern Exposure'. In the local news yesterday they had talked about missing rugs andlost dogs. It is great!

I guess within the last few weeks they fired their morning show guy and it has this whole little town of Ely, Minnesota in an uproar! It's great! They have a forum and you can see that a lot of people are pissed about the change.

I am going to link up to it so you can hear what they are all about. Very good music is played there. Just a little something for you to check out and enjoy!

prospects

Due to my wifes vigilance she has put me onto some pretty good jobs. Of course I am sure that I will not be considered for any of the jobs but it's worth a shot. Something has to go my way soon. Sure I could find a job tomorrow but there is no way in hell I can support my family on it. I need to finish college. The only thing is that what I want to go to school for doesn;t really pay anything. But I have a passion fo rit so I think I will pursue it more. Besides half the jobs I see listed want you to have a degree in ANYTHING.

I must sound like the whiniest piece of crap!? I just didn't expect to be out of work for 7 fucking months. Me and my wife are kicking ourselves for not picking up and leaving when the navy would have paid for it. They only gave us 30 days to do this though so it was a big change in a very short time. So now I am stuck here with no support structure and struggling my fat ass off.

My wife thinks that I am "level headed" and have it together. Boy is she wrong. I am at the stage again where I can't sleep and I get sick to my stomach thinking about the turn my life has taken. I have no doubt that some day I will dig myself out of this hole but until then it really sucks.

I especially feel bad for my son. He just knows that daddy used to be gone with work all the time and now he is home 24/7 with him. I am glad that he is young and probably won't remember too much of this horrible time in Team Cackmandu.

It's all good. Not really sure what to do or where to go next. Oh what a life.

religous freaks

I mentioned teh forum that I go to...I am not so sure that its so much a tree-hugger forum as it is a place for rednecks to gather and share stories and advice. They all I am sure are members of the NRA. Not that that is a bad thing but I think they are the hardcore ones i.e. Charlton Heston.

They all talk about being prepared for the next big storm or whatever and how prepared they are for it. They have hundreds of gallons of gasoline for their generators and thousands of gallons in reserve. It makes sense to me and I can agree with them on most points. I too would like to eventually live an "off the grid" type lifestyle. They do lack the tree-huggery that I was hoping for there.

Then not to mention there are a ton of religious freaks there. Not to offend anybody but what the hell? I had noticed a thread and it was about X-mas and A few people made sure to spell Christmas like CHRISTmas. Give me a break!

I stirred the pot a bit and wondered if you could have Darwin without God? That sparked a huge debate. I by all rights am an athiest. I don't believe in a God and have no plans to do so. Don't hate me and judge me because I have a different belief than you. I don't not like people because they are catholic or christian. Makes no sense. I find it to be very un-christian/catholic to dislike me because I have a different belief structure.

It gets nuts at this place and it seems that God is the focal point of many of the people there. Most are good natured about it and don't pass judgement and that should be applauded. It's the wackos there that make it unbearable at times.

They even had a topic of what will people be calling their X-mas trees this year. Give me a break!

I am off my soap box now.

I am my own man

I belong to a tree-huggerish forum. I will have to link up to it sometime in the near future. Anhwho, I had been bitching about the polygraph for some time there and was getting nothing but shit from these people. All of them letting me know in no uncertain terms that I was a whiny punk. They mostly suggested that I can only hurt myself by going and talking with the Assistant Sheriff.

Well, I was there bright and early and had a very frank and detailed conversation with this man. Before we sat down I told him straight up that I was not looking at getting the job but wanted to know EXACTLY why. He went over the polygraph test and said this is why you were denoed employment with us. I can handle that.

I asked him if many people come in after being denied and he said that very few did. He was surprised by my questions and knowledge of what I wanted. I guess with all of the local inbred population here the choices are few for them to pick.

He did however suggest that I apply for the deputy sherrif positions that are opening up...8-9 of them. He fed me a line how he felt that they let one slip by which did nothing to ease my feelings about the whole thing.

I was sure to go back to the forum and let them know that I had gone against their advice and was pleased with the outcome.

one of those days

Today my wife hated me again. As she should to some degree. I am the one that has put us in this situation. We are both angry with ourselves for not leaving when the Navy would have paid 100% of the cost back to MN. Hindsight is always 20/20 or so I hear.

I just left a comment about giving to less fortunate people. I amaze myself all the time. I am usually an ass and have a very weird sense of humor. Anyway, we bought a box at a local grocery store full of food to give to "needy" people. I can't even pay my rent and I am buying stuff for other people.

Oh well, I am sure that I will post again later. Have Mr. Mom duties to attend!

lame-o

I went to my monthly writers meeting this evening and didn't submit a story. Due to me being a dumb ass. It's all good. Would you expect anything else from me at this point?

I enjoyed the meeting tonight and am almost sure that everybody there thinks I am a simple minded twit that has NO opinions whatsoever about anything. I sit there for 2 hours and say almost nothing. Meanwhile I am itching to say something. Totally not like me. Think that I am just feeling them out so I don't knock there socks off with full frontal me.

Anyway, I am going to bed and going to make the bad people go away. Wish me luck!

Just rambling

Well, I really nothing to say today. I am still a pissy bitch today. I am wondering how good of an idea it was to get out of the Navy and stay in this area! I should have moved back to MN and al;l would have been good.....so I like to think. Live and learn I suppose. Not sure how much of this jobless shit I can take? I have an interview at a local post office today which actually sounds a lot better than I think the opportunity is.

I have been getting a lot of chain e-mails and stupid shit forwarded to me by my brothers ex-wife. I had never met her until this summer when I went out to MN. She is a great woman and did wonders for my brother. Doesn't mean that I need to be getting goofy e-mails. Maybe I am a grinch with all that has been going on with me of late.

I also have a writers meeting tonight and have a few things that I have written but not sure what to submit. I am not even sure I will. I plan on going but may go story-less.

I also need razors to shave for my interview today. My wife took all of my money. I have an electric razor but that cooks my face and I hate it. Will have to do what I have to do.

As usual I will keep anybody that reads this updated as to how miserable my life is getting.

What the fuck?

What the fuck? My life was even more sidetracked today. Is there nothing that can go right for me? Obvioulsy the cocksuckers down at the sheriffs department don't think I am capable of working for them.

My wife is taking this hard. I was in! Fuck! I am fed up with this shit for now. What seemed like the greatest decision in my young life is now turning to be one big cluster. I am so glad that I am married to the woman that I am. Other wise I would be up shit creek with a paddle.

wrong number

Today I called a wrong number and it went to shit very fast. I called and they answered the phone in a way that I wasn't expecting and it caught me off guard. Anyways she asks who I am calling and I tell her. She starts ranting how I dialed her cell number and wondered how I got it. I explained I dialed a wrong number. She kept asking who I was calling. I told her that I wasn't going to banter with her about this topic. She went on asking how I got this number. It was accident! I told her that we were bantering about nothing. Have a good day!

She was a wierdo! I am now addicted to poker on Yahoo. i am doing well and have made over a thousand "dollars" this evening. What a life!! I think I am going to do some writing for my writers group tomorrow. Not sure what to write about. I have written a few things but not sure they are what I want to submit for my first raping from this group.