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What the hell? The other night I was a blogging fool. I opf course have no offerings of the meaning of my blogging, I have no cute tales of my son and luckliy no new dog shit stories to share.
It is just a slow day and I am pondering my future and my life. There has to be so many people that would like to know about the situation I am in now. I am sure that there are a lot of people out there that imagined that I would end up being a shitbird.
By no means am I an idiot, although it seems that I do very idiotic things. I must say that after my mother died when I was 14 I made a choice to live my life the way I wanted to. Sometimes its a good thing and sometimes it bites me in the ass. I never know when I will die. I seem to know this lesson all to well since no one in my family has passed their 40th b-day. (Family I mean mom, brother) That is now my biggest goal in life and will still have to wait that out for another 12 fucking years.
I of course have other loftier goals as well, you know get back on my feet and not be that guy that so many people had expected me to be. That would mean get a job and eventually move back to MN. Lots of people ask me why I want to move back there. Well to be honest, it's what I know. I spent the first 19 years of my life there and have only been there a total of maybe 3 months in the last 9 years. I'm not good at math but that adds up to not being there very much.
I have already seen and done things that many people could imagine experiencing. For that I am grateful but I still have a longing to be with "my people". This East Coast shit is crap. It has snowed once this year. Give me a break.
Enough whining. I am outta here for a few minutes and going to post again about something so insanely boring that nobody I am sure will read it.
posted by cackmandu at 6:12 PM
2 Comments:
It's different isn't it... the midwest and the east? I know when I was in the midwest, Nodak, the lifestyle was much, much slower. People stick together more. Although - it never snowed it was cold as the Artic and the summers were hot as hell! Within one year, I was dug into the community. I had a few friends, but to be honest, there was SHIT to do in Nodak. To get to anything cultural - we had to drive, most likely fly out of the state. And outdoorsy things weren't really there either. Now, MN, has a ton of outdoor things and you've got some awesome culturally available cities. Nodak - nada. I longed to be near my people too. So, I get it. Honestly, Pennsylvanian SMALL towns are fairly close to the feel of MN. My Dad grew up in MN and Nodak and he ended up staying in a small PA town. Large cities in PA, and IMO especially Philly SUCK!!!! Pittsburgh is cool. Less crime, less grime. Well, I hope you succeed in what's important to YOU. Best of luck! :0)
January 16, 2006 9:09 AM
I would be moving to a decent size city in Minnesota. Duluth, population around 100,000. Just right! I do like the east coast a helluva lot better than the west coast. Simply for the history here and the ease at which I can get to major cities.
January 16, 2006 9:19 AM
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