prospects

Due to my wifes vigilance she has put me onto some pretty good jobs. Of course I am sure that I will not be considered for any of the jobs but it's worth a shot. Something has to go my way soon. Sure I could find a job tomorrow but there is no way in hell I can support my family on it. I need to finish college. The only thing is that what I want to go to school for doesn;t really pay anything. But I have a passion fo rit so I think I will pursue it more. Besides half the jobs I see listed want you to have a degree in ANYTHING.

I must sound like the whiniest piece of crap!? I just didn't expect to be out of work for 7 fucking months. Me and my wife are kicking ourselves for not picking up and leaving when the navy would have paid for it. They only gave us 30 days to do this though so it was a big change in a very short time. So now I am stuck here with no support structure and struggling my fat ass off.

My wife thinks that I am "level headed" and have it together. Boy is she wrong. I am at the stage again where I can't sleep and I get sick to my stomach thinking about the turn my life has taken. I have no doubt that some day I will dig myself out of this hole but until then it really sucks.

I especially feel bad for my son. He just knows that daddy used to be gone with work all the time and now he is home 24/7 with him. I am glad that he is young and probably won't remember too much of this horrible time in Team Cackmandu.

It's all good. Not really sure what to do or where to go next. Oh what a life.