a pattern

I have noticed in my blog browsing that people usually write when stressed out or something BAD is going on in their lives. I guess I am no different at this point. Who knows? Maybe it's the anonymity of this whole blog thing. Nobody that reads this knows who I am or what I am about...really. You see glimpses and read certain things that I want you to know. I think that I have been failry honest with my readers. If I wasn't why the fuck would I be here?

This whole thing is a huge kick to the balls. I have had a pretty good job and yes, I have been wanting to get out of the Navy for a while. Although, this may not be a 100% thing. I have to put in some paperwork on Monday and have all the right people sign off on it and then it will ultimately have to go to the CO and he will either say Yes or No. I am obvioulsy choosing for the prior but am expecting the latter.

My wife is pissed because I had let things slip and I agree but I just had no idea where I was with the whole PRT thing. Things are going to rough and I will probably have to take a pay cut here. That is what is concerning my wife a bit because we are paid decent and can afford some of the little bonuses in life. Not to mention that we have been entertaining the thought of buying a house soon. I just don't see that happening any time soon. I wouldn't buy a house here in MD because the cost is insane. But we have been looking for one somewhere any way. Not to mention my wife has started to do somethings that she really enjoys here in the area.

Not sure if we would move right away anyway. I think if in the worst case I am out of the Navy I will get a severance pay of about $20,000 so that will get us by for a bit but I don't want to count on that I would like to add that to our savings and use it for whatever my futuire endeavors hold for Team Cackmandu!

I am sure that we will be ok. Me and my wife had talked about doing the merchant marines. I would be a civilian mariner working with sailors in the navy. It pays about what I make now maybe a bit more. But I will have to be gone ALL the time. That is an option and I am not so high on that because I have been away from my family enough to know that I want to be home with them every day. I really have no other option than to do ok. Like i said, I am sure that I won't find a job that pays what I make now. Who's to say that the next job I take won't launch me into something better? Being in the Navy for 8 years and doing the things that I have done has to account for something?